Official Proposal

so...my big proposal. after spending some time talking to Fareshteh on Saturday evening, i feel comfortable balancing the work between juggling and being human. each sketch features a center piece that will be a video monitor. this will play clips of me attempting to perform juggling maneuvers. i have not yet decided whether they will all be done in a darkroom with glowing apparatus, since i believe as of right now i only have access to three glowing balls, or whether it will be a mix of the darkroom and of juggling with normal lighting. around the central piece are pictures.

as you can see in the first image, there is the monitor. surrounded by 8 images. there is also a display stand at the front, which will hold 3 balls, and hopefully will be inviting the viewers to juggle themselves with me. there might be a sign there suggesting such activity. (you can also see some notes about juggling).

on the topmost sketch in the second image, the design is based around both the monitor, and the four large pictures of successful attempts at certain juggling tricks. there are also smaller images that showcase the failures of said attempts.

i then said to myself "maybe the successes aren't so important..."

and sketched the central monitor surrounded by four large images of the failures and then four small images of the successes.

i don't always think success, at least perfect success isn't really the point. the point is trying in the first place. it is fighting the fear of failure, and getting up in front of people and trying to do something, hoping that they will appreciate the effort regardless of the outcome.

juggling is a ridiculously precise activity. when someone is trying to juggle 9 balls, 7 clubs, who-the-heck-knows how many rings, consistency and accuracy are imperative. i know that i am no where close to any of those things. i have to concentrate super hard simply to juggle 3 clubs. however to document myself trying to do tricks that i have not mastered, or even tried, yet will be a very interesting exercise. on top of that, to share these moments with other people invites them into my life. when Baldassari shared his attempts at forming shapes by throwing balls into the air, he invited the viewers into the activity. into the moments of his life that were spent throwing the balls, and photographing them.

i am still thinking over where exactly i want to put this. one thought is along the line of "street" from where jugglers during the Renaissance where forced to perform because of the stigmatism against them. but if i were to place this in a hallway...what would it do to the space of the hallway. would it becomes clogged with people watching the video?

the placement will continue to be thought about.